here are some things i know about myself

i need to be breaking down problems in order to breathe
i need to be exercising hard in order to breathe
i need to be sleeping with a cpap machine in order to breathe
i need to be writing everyday in order to breathe
i need to be seeing anna and hanging out with friends in order to breathe

i need organized space and food in order to sustain breathing

i am embarassed that i haven’t figured out what my life purpose is and what i am supposed to be doing. i’m supposed to be successful and maybe i am. but i haven’t lined it up.

I wonder when I will be a real person.